Valentine's day is like an exam. The purpose of an exam is to test your knowledge prior to the subject. In layman's term, the teacher wants to find out what's in yr head (whether u know the theories) and you translate that into answers to the exam questions. Now, Valentine's day is the test paper. And your partner is the teacher. He/she (usually just the she) wants to know how much you know about the subject (love). You have to translate what's in yr heart (the whole i love u thing) into answers. Hence requiring some form of action/gifts. It's through these actions will yr "teacher" know if you know the subject well.
Now we all know why Valentine's day is stressful. It's an exam...

Good analogy i came up with? :) failed to persuade leon with this though...

I feel very lost now. I've planned my studying timetable for the next 2 weeks because mid terms are coming up and I've more or less sticked to it for3 days? Suddenly plans and meetings starts coming up and I know I've to reorganise everything. But it's so tiring? Like you want to be organized but circumstances require you to be spontaneous. I feel like I'm filled to the brim but by nothing. It's a feeling yet in reality, I do not have as much stuff to do as I think I have? From manicure appointment to school meetings to cny preparations, everything is happening simultaneously. I have to shop for my sister's cny clothings, handle projects & assignments, study for midterms, find time to read, do manicure & pedicure for cny (so bimbo I know) and on top of that, I've to spend time with Leon. Everything's packed back to back. I don't know where to start. The kind of feeling whereby you'll only rest at ease after the event/job is done. This can be further testified by the MBTI assessment which was developed from the work of prominent psychiatrist Carl G. Jung in his book Psychological Types. I'm an ISTJ -Inspector.

Quoting Wiki
   "ISTJs thrive on organization. They keep their lives and environments well-regulated. They bring painstaking attention to detail in their work and will not rest until a job is well completed. They are often dissatisfied with unresolved issues, whether in life or in fiction."

which is so damn true. Thanks to Bellie, who distracted me from my readings to do the test. I can't seem to sort out my thoughts with things undone. Every night before I sleep, the things that are uncompleted circles around my head again and again. I'm getting insomnia, grrrr!

Sidenote:
Today was a roller coaster ride. My LTB group proposal got shot down by the professor and all of us were so stressed out since we had to come out with a new idea. In the end, we did and we all love it > than the original idea. I met Jasmine to shop and retail therapy felt damn good (got to love secondhand bookstore). Then I was suppose to go for 2 consecutive meetings from 7pm onwards. Out of the blue, everything was canceled when I laid foot in school. Do you get which part was high and which was low? Fine, I'm weird....

Since I'm so god damn bored to the extent that I've watched 3 movies in the past 6 hours, I shall update about the short break in december. So at least few years down the road, when I want to recall, I'll have this post as a memory cue.

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I'm done with my Introductory Statistics' homework and I'm elated (not about the fact that my dad chided me for being fat though). I really love mathematics. The joy of using formulas, solving questions, pressing the graphic calculator and joy of getting the answer totally owns writing fucking essays. I'd have taken a degree course in Mathematics if the degree weren't so useless. I can't think of any career prospects with regards to a Mathematics degree besides being a P.E teacher (my form tutor in JC is a P.E teacher and he has a degree in Mathematics). So I guess the closest you can get to doing math in Social Science would be..... empirical formulas (if it's even math?) that look like gibberish on articles or correlation graphs which can barely suffice with my love for math. I should just stick to doing my JC math papers when I'm free (like really FREE which means after bathing 10 times and still have nothing to do).
I'm spouting nonsense. HAHA! This is what university does to you, it makes you disorientated.

Practicality.

It's time for the conventional EOY post + new year resolutions! I'm still not used to getting back to reality. The 5 days of getaway from this city to a laid back lifestyle in Langkawi has made me slowed down living pace (not shopping pace though). Being back in a city with high rise buildings makes me miss Langkawi. 5 days of Leon and his family is smack awesome. With cans of beer priced at RM2, we really drank our hearts out. Every night is gambling + drinking + soccer, feels like new year! I even "clubbed" there with his aunts and uncles :S Snorkeling, fishing and beach experiences involve a lot of boat trips. While typing this post, I still can feel the "rocking boat" feeling lingering. Talk more about this soon!

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After reading xiaxue's blog, I'm surprised that a guy like Mike actually exists. I thought it only happens in drama series. Haha drama's good. You get to live this life once only man. I think it takes tremendous courage to step out of the conventional route people take in life. primary/secondary education > university > get a job > married > kids > become grandparents > die I don't want to look back at my life at 60 years old and think what a loser I am.

When was the last time we had decent fun singing our lungs out and laughing silly? Thank you phua for everything today :)

I know it has been long! I just turned 19 when my friends are turning 20. Awesome :) At least I dont hit the big two so quickly/

You know humans are such complex and contradicting creatures. Whenever someone who treats you nice, chances that you take that person for granted is high. You probably expect that person to be nice to you forever. Then the twist comes. This person starts treating you like shit, that's when you start thinking, "Oh that person's a gem." Everyone around you may tell you how the person treats you like shit yet some voice in you will say, "No it's not that bad." No matter how much it sucks for you, no matter how hurtful it may be, you cling on because you still love the person, after all, he/she is/was someone important. Or maybe simply because loneliness is scary. The time will come when you move on with your life, when that person doesn't matter anymore, when you have grown out of it. The time will come when you realize adulthood is lonesome, no one's trustworthy, no one's reliable, no one has got your back. The time will come when you reflect on your life and you'll come to realize that you are nothing but a lonely soul. The time will come when you realize that you are just another insignificant being on Earth. I'm just waiting for that time to come.

Do I still know you? Do I really still know you? Sometimes when I meet up with you, you are still that old silly you. But when you are with your new friends, it makes me feel unwanted. If you are desperate enough to borrow money just to go on a trip with your new friends, I think you've become someone that I don't know. I don't know what you are trying to prove. Maybe I was wrong about you.

How wish I could change my camera :(


My lumix sucks to the core :( Should I bug my dad for this? But I feel so guilty....
I feel like giving up on Political Science!! It has never been my forte and it will never be. But I don't want a D to stain my overall grades. Not like I'll get As for everything but it's ugly? Idk! I'm just envying everyone out there who are finally done with exams (forgetting that there are going to be another 8 more rounds of exams). Yet I do not have any post exam activities to look forward to, besides Langkawi trip that's so far away! I have no motivation and I need to shop... I've not step in Orchard area for 1.5 months (considerably long time)!! Saturday seems really far away.

Pictures from Leon's birthday. I had a major fight with my sister before that and I got so upset with Leon the night before. My eyes were so swollen that I looked like shit hence the lack of photos. We had picnic at Bishan park. The weather was so unbearable that we packed up in an hour's time and left the place. I won him over with my awesome prawn aglio pasta! The cute lunchbox I got from Daiso were so pleasing to the eye. He had to complete 3 tasks to get 3 lousy presents. Of which, he only completed one only...which was to blow out the candles that were suppose to relight... But I got cheated. He blew them out in 3 tries. Neither did he fly the kite, he claim there was no wind :@
We watched Pearl Harbor at home and had dinner at Villa Bali. The place has a nice ambience. Too bad I could not take any photos because Jasmine's camera died. We sat on a platform that required us to sit cross legged so it was pretty uncomfortable. I was wearing a dress on top of that. We had Thai platter which had really exotic stuff like sweet sauced pomelo and fish satay. Price was reasonable because it was a Sunday (recession price). One for one housepours too! After that, we walked down to Anchorpoint, got two awesome men trousers at $5 each. Mind you, the quality does not lack in any way. Ice cream from Ikea does not taste the same anymore :( It used to taste abit like coffee, now, it's just a normal Mac Donald 50cents ice cream. Or is it just my taste buds?





I'm in the foulest of the foulest mood today. I really kinda felt psychotic after trying to squeeze every single different type of delusional, anxiety, dissociative, somatic disorder and schizophrenia. On top of that, their therapies too. Bloody hell! Most boring chapter of psychology!! I'm so annoyed with my dad, he loves spoiling plans!! :@

IT'S THE LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL! Seriously, time flies! Leon and I just celebrated our 6 months yesterday! It doesn't feel that long.
I can't believe I'm still not accustomed to the grading in school. Used to be satisfied with C, now getting a B is not even satisfactory. Anyway, just two more weeks to exams and we'll be done for the time being... Whatever, can't wait to meet Ang and Cindy soon. I haven't seen them in AGES (needless to say for Cindy..)

Side note: I was suppose to do my readings for pol sci and I ended up stalking people online. And fuck bidding!! I didn't get LTB :(

To all fellow sufferers of education out there, be it for O levels, A levels or trying to cope with the workload in university, I know you might feeling like this:
now but don't give up.
HANG IN THERE! It's all gonna be over in a month's time then it's December holidays baby!!! Meanwhile, look forward to Halloween and have a blast. After that, go back to your books and get ready to mug all day. Or if you need some retail therapy, do come down to SMU. There will be a bazaar held in our concourse. Don't shopping make you happy?
(pardon my mediocre photoshopping skills)


But I still need to rant! How can anyone have so much assignment at one time!!! Political science essay, BGS + CT + MC + POL SCI presentation, BGS group project, MC assignment, psychology individual project....for now. God knows how much more is gonna come along... :(

I really really really really prayyyy hhaarrrddd that lao tian will let Leon join my family for the BKK trip end of this year! Hopefully his work and finances will permit him to do so!! And I'd be ecstatic if we could go on two overseas trip together albeit Asian countries. One week break officially ended an hour ago... It was not considered a break at all, I had to go back to school 3 out of 5 days for meetings meetings and meetings. I was just collating all the assignments due in near time, the list of work to do is daunting :( I can't wait to strike them off one by one. And with my latest commitment in Bizcom, I'm seriously making use of every little time I have :S
Whatever! I hope Leon can go BKK!!!! I'm willing to work my ass off now if he can go!!

DIY Blazer

Inspired by OSF, I did this blazer a few days back. I'm quite happy with the outcome for a 3 hour effort. The blazer cutting is weird though because I bought it online. The blazer is not padded hence the slouchy shoulders :S Comments please!

I can't believe I did not even update about the IS bash :O that was erm 2 months ago? Haha I had to refer to facebook to remind me of the events that occurred within this time frame. Basically, life now = studying and hanging out the favourite people.

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I really love this boy :) Hope things continue to be this good! 4 months of great company and love, more to come :D